Life is a mystery
I use to think life was something to be ‘worked out’. Like if I got everything ‘right’ or had all the ‘pieces’ in front of me. I could put it all together and then finally, finally... I would feel like I had done it. I would be complete. I would be whole. I would be safe.
Yet as I discovered, after years of taking this ill-informed mindset into the field of life, turns out it creates more stress than freedom. For life is ever changing, and even if you get the puzzle ‘right’ today, tomorrow it’s different. It’s changed. And then where does your wholeness go? Where does your grounded, safe, sense of self disappear to? As you’re back with new pieces of the puzzle trying to fit it all in.
This way of seeing even followed me into the beginning years of my ‘spiritual’ journey (and I see this a lot with anyone doing personal development work)... again trying to ‘know it’ to ‘get it’. Just one more course. One more experience. If I can just get the right combination then ta-da! I will have done it. Completeness and wholeness just around the corner.
It’s taken years of letting go, surrender and a good dose of grinding Saturn to understand that life is truly a mystery, and what a joy that is.
To wake up each day and be open, curious, even excited about what is going to come - both the wonderful things and the challenges. Not needing to plan or control every minute. To set the rhythm with intention, but have the space and open-ness to let it flow. To let the petals of each second unfold in all their brilliance. What will come? Only the Divine knows. And thank god. What boring lives we would have if we ever only got what we wanted.
Only our heart of hearts has the knowing of Being. And this we will embody in sweet time. Asking the way, these little bodies of ours, these minds and personalities are here for the mysterious ride. And what a blessing that is. Appreciating the mystery. Loving the unknown. Letting life unfold in front of us in all its glory.
Quote from the incredible book ‘Strands of Eternity’ by Vasant Lad